Eliza Dushku revealed a secret battle with addiction while speaking to students at the New Hampshire Youth Summit on Opioid Awareness.
“Something a lot of people don’t know about me is that I’m also an alcoholic and I was a drug addict for a lot of years,” the “Buffy the Vampire Slayer” alumna said Tuesday.
“I’m always going to be that, but the difference between me and an alcoholic or a drug addict that still drinks and does drugs is that I’m sober. I don’t drink and I don’t do drugs anymore.”
Dushku, 36, said she began smoking marijuana when she was just 14. She’s been sober for eight and a half years.
“Middle school and high school are really hard. They’re really hard. We’re freaking out inside. We have hormones, we’ve got cool kids, we’re trying to fit in. It’s madness. It can be really fun, too, but it can be so scary,” she said.
“I loved the first time I took a drug because I loved the way it made me feel. I loved the way it made me not feel. I didn’t have to feel.
“It was fun and I loved it, until it wasn’t. Drugs didn’t love me. They didn’t love my family. They definitely didn’t love my friends that died.”
She got sober, she said, for her family, specifically for her brother who wouldn’t allow her around his daughter.
“I’m a really good auntie today. But you know what? He was right. I’m a good person, but when I did drugs and I drank, I didn’t make good decisions,” she said. “All it takes is one bad decision. You don’t have to live like that.”
Now, Dushku said, she can still “dance on tabletops” and enjoy life without drugs and alcohol. She’s gone back to school, too, and enrolled in college.
“I got sober for my family, but today I’m sober for me. And I’m sober for you. Because drugs and alcohol are powerful, but we’re more powerful.”